I'm very wary when it comes to signs or superstitions. It's why I bite my finger after I point at something (people say it's bad luck if you don't). But I also believe that pointing at someone is somewhat rude.
Last Saturday I was listening to a song when I read a comment which was written in all caps. It said, DON'T READ, (Of course I read it anyway) it continued on saying about some stuff about being kissed by your crush and meeting your true love. I figured that I should really stop reading in case I read something I didn't want to know. But I didn't stop, not until I read the warning. It said, SINCE YOU DIDN'T STOP AND CONTINUED READING ANYWAY, YOU'LL DIE IN TWO DAYS IF YOU DON'T SPREAD THIS MESSAGE THREE TIMES IN THE NEXT 153 MINUTES, being myself I was, of course, spooked. I didn't sleep very well that night, nor the next night. I kept on thinking how my heart was beating too loudly and why the dogs were barking so much. It made me feel like that girl from the movie "Drag me to Hell", not a very good feeling.
Last night, before I went to sleep, I thanked God sincerely for all the days that I've had and maybe, if he'll let it, all the other days I will still be having. I've never really thought of what it'd be like if I died, I guess I imagined I'd be like a ghost or something because I don't really feel like I'm on the end of my road yet.
I watched this movie last December, it was about a guy who could see spirits but wouldn't help them. After some time, after he lost the girl he was in love with, he came to realize that he felt empty, numb, like nothing was important or relevant anymore. He asked his fellow dentist to write a receipt for him so he could get some drugs to make it all easier to get by. The dentist didn't give him anything but showed him a quote,
“Only a life lived for others is worth living”
-Albert Einstein
The guy understood and started helping out the spirits that seeked him. It was really nice because the spirits faded into a flash of light whenever he was done doing what they requested. It was after all that that he realized something. He said that it isn't that the spirit isn't letting go because of some unfinished business, it's us not willing to let them go yet, maybe because we're not ready, or because we really don't want to.
I asked Treena what she'd feel if she knew she would die, she said it was okay just as long nobody got hurt. I think that's a noble way to die, but if I think of it I don't want to die at all. At least not yet, not until God thinks it's time for me to go. Sharing about this makes me feel a whole lot better, it makes me nervous to read messages like this (the one in all caps), it makes me shudder.
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