Answers

God Answers a prayer in three ways:

• Yes, and He'll give you what you want
• No, and He'll give you something better
  
• Wait, and He'll give you the best

Where I'm going

For some time I've never really been sure of what I want to do or where I want to go in the future when I finally have the chance. It's always about here and now that sometimes it's easy to forget there's a later. Sure, I've always got an answer to questions like "what's your dream?" or "What do you want to do?" Sometimes I'd say that I'd want to be a host of a show, a show that takes me all over the world, or maybe even a writer with bestseller books. If you ask me seriously I'd even say that I'd want want to be a psychologist just to give you an answer. But all these things are just that, things that I think I want but am not really sure if I want to have, they're just answers. I want to be more, but more of what you ask? I'm not really sure. I just want to be more. I guess I like winning stuff, I like doing things I'm good at, I like laughing with my friends and I like being with my family and having a good time with them. With all I have it seems selfish to ask for more. The concert of Alvin Barcelona's Himaya band made me realize that it's okay for me to dream big dreams. To get lost for a while trying to figure out where you're going because at least you've got somewhere to go to. I'm an easily pursuaded person, a girl who's made more mistakes than she can keep count of, but I'm also girl who doesn't regret ever making any one of those mistakes because each of them led me here. Making them I laughed, I also cried, most of them made me trip and fall of my face, and some left me feeling as happy as a suicidal emo. The point I'm making is that as many, or as few, as these moments were to me they didn't mean that I'll never be happy again. Just because I don't know where I'm going doesn't mean I'll give up trying to figure it out. :)

An Oxymoron Poem

One fine day in the middle of the night,

Two dead boys got up to fight,

Back to back they faced each other,

Drew their swords and shot each other,

One was blind and the other couldn't see,

So they chose a dummy for a referee.

A blind man went to see fair play,

A dumb man went to shout "hooray!"

A paralysed donkey passing by,

Kicked the blind man in the eye,

Knocked him through a nine inch wall,

Into a dry ditch and drowned them all,

A deaf policeman heard the noise,

And came to arrest the two dead boys,

If you don't believe this story’s true,

Ask the blind man; he saw it too!

-Author Unknown

It's a Saturday Night

I watched The Sorcerer's apprentice with my brother and my sister at SM city. I love the movie, my favorite scene is when Dave listened to One Republic's song, secrets, and did that thing with the blue plasma bolts. The lead actor, Jay Baruchel, who plays Dave, is the voice of Astrid in "How to train a Dragon". It's a really nice movie and I'm glad we watched. It was really cold when we were riding the jeepney to get home. It rained, it's still raining. Life's Good.

The Blue Handprint

The last two weeks have been the busiest and and the last few days have been the craziest. I have a lot to catch up on two of them is the mural painting activity and the most recent Taize prayer vigil.

When you're in the parking lot near St. Anne's Hall you can see a long stretch of wall. This wall separates Assumption from St. Paul's Hospital. 7 years ago the teachers of Assumption Iloilo proposed a solution to the vandalism issue that was present in the chairs and walls of classrooms. Thus the first mural painting contest of assumption Iloilo was birthed. It was a class project where the class artists and the students were to paint a mural that expressed the theme that was being asked in just one look. 7 years later, in the same year Assumption will celebrate it's centennial celebration, students will be again asked to paint.

I like painting, there's something very...fullfiling? I don't know how to describe it exactly but there's just something very appealing in the feel of paint staining your hands, some satisfaction in seeing you clothes having accidental stains and colorful brushes of pastel colors (even if you know you have to use paint thinner to get them off). You sometimes don't expect what you'd get after mixing colors and spreading them in, sometimes, uneven brush strokes. when I paint, and probably when everyone else is painting, it feels special because I'm making something using my own two hands. I didn't do much other than help out with the painting but I'm really happy that I took part in painting that mural as a whole because while I was painting with my fellow painters we had a lot of laughs and I had a lot of fun even though it resulted me to going home late, having paint on my shirt and sacrificing a weekend.

Jack's Mannequin-Swim (OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO)

You gotta swim,
Swim for your life,
Swim for the music,
That saves you,
When you're not so sure you'll survive,
You gotta swim,
And swim when it hurts,
The whole world is watching,
You haven't come this far,
To fall off the earth,

The currents will pull you,
Away from your love,
Just keep your head above,

I found a tidal wave,
Begging to tear down the dawn,
Memories like bullets,
They fired at me from a gun,
Cracking the armor yeah,
I swim for brighter days,
Despite the absence of sun,
Choking on salt water,
I'm not giving in,
Swim,

You gotta swim,
For nights that won't end,
Swim for your families,
Your lovers your sisters,
And brothers and friends,
Yeah, you gotta swim,
For wars without cause,
Swim for the lost politicians,
Who don't see their greed as a flaw,

The currents will pull us,
Away from our love,
Just keep your head above,

I found a tidal wave,
Begging to tear down the dawn,
Memories like bullets,
They fired at me from a gun,
Cracking the armor yeah,
I swim for brighter days,
Despite the absence of sun,
Choking on salt water,
I'm not giving in,
Well I'm not giving in,
Swim

You gotta swim,
Swim in the dark,
There's no shame in drifting,
Feel the tide shifting and wait for the spark,
Yeah you gotta swim,
Don't let yourself sink,
Just find the horizon,
I promise you it's not as far as you think,
The currents will drag us away from our love,

Just keep your head above,
Just keep your head above,
Swim,
Just keep your head above,
Swim,
Swim,
Just keep your head above,
Swim.

My Muse

I like a lot of bands. Some of them you may know, some you haven't even heard of. There are different genres in music and sometimes two or more is suited to your personality, that is why you like more songs in this genre than in that other genre. Sometimes my tastes is music is boring, or at least that's what my friend says, but I don't mind.

A band that I've known since I was in 5th grade but only recently remembered is Jack's Mannequin. Almost all of their songs makes use of the piano and contains a short piano solo.

Songs that I love by J.M.

1. Swim
2. Dark Blue
3. The Mixed Tape
4. We Were Made for Each Other
5. Kill the Messenger

Another band I know is Dashboard Confessional. The name Dashboard Confessional comes from the song The Sharp Hint of New Tears. The line "On the way home, this car hears my confessions," brought to mind the phrase "Dashboard Confessional." This is mostly about easy listening and hearing the lyrics which are actually pretty good. Emo songs. I'm not emo.

Songs by D.C.

1. Stolen
2. Dusk and Summer
3. Belle of the Boulevard
4. Vindicated
5. So Long Sweet Summer

-May be boring to some people.

Random Songs that I'll always love:

1. She will be Loved- Maroon 5
2. She's got you High- Mummrha (?)
3. Face Down- Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
4. Stolen- Dashboard Confessional
5. You Could Be Happy- Snow Patrol
6. Promise the Stars- We the Kings
7. Mr. Brightside- The Killers
8. Gravity, Why Georgia- John Mayer
9. Forever and Always, You Belong with Me- Taylor Swift
10. Where's the Love- Black Eyed Peas
11. Stay here Forever- Jewel
12. Yellow, the Scientist - Coldplay
13. Dream a Little Dream of Me- Glee
14. Gotta Go My Own Way- HSM2 (Vanessa Hudgens)

The thing is that probably more than half of the songs I've posted here would be considered boring or unremarkable by most of you if you ever listen to any of them. But that doesn't bother me because these songs, ever time I hear them they make me remember a moment in my life, where the memory is so strong that it's like I'm experiencing that moment one more time. The song Gravity reminds me of the time I went to Bacolod with my family to visit a wedding. Stay Here Forever reminds me of the time I was listening to it on the way home from Ajuy where i was at the window seat looking at the sea. She's Got You High makes me imagine the movie 500 Days of Summer because that was where I'd first heard it.

Quote of the Post:

There are happy songs, there are songs for tragedy and there are songs for life, but the best songs are the songs that have the power to take us back to the first time we heard them.

-Gossip girl, edited