Immersing

The Immersion trip was okay. It was fun and tiring. I can't say that it totally changed me and made me realize something BIG but it made me realize something important nonetheless. My "Nanay" for the day was a kind mother of three lovely children. They were all good to us as all the families were. At some point I tried to play Connect Four with my little "sister", it didn't go so well. Some of the other much littler children tried to play as well, I did my best to prevent them from eating any of the pieces that might cause them indigestion and a trip to the hospital. My family there made me think of my real family. They had a simple wants and a simple lifestyle that reminded me of our own way of living. My "sister" there made me think of my much younger cousin whom I was often mean to when she was still in the Philippines.
I'm not that good with children and I often avoid situations where I might interact with them. I sometimes get worried whether they'd like me or not. So as much as possible I avoid situations where they could judge me and choose. But this recent experience of mine taught me how I was a child once and how I used to act the same way they do. It was honestly very fun to be with that young girl because it made me see how wrong I've been about them. I wish that I could be brave enough to apologize to that cousin of mine when she gets here.